I have had a really hard time this week. There has been so much going on in life that the RAM in my brain has burned out. The idea of thinking or making a decision about anything more complicated than “do I need to pee?” Sends my body jerking uncontrollably. My husband asked me a very basic budget question the other day and I started flapping about like a fish out of water.
I have found that the best thing for me to do when things get this bad is to take some major time out. I have tried to suck it up and get through it my whole life, but when I do I usually end in hospital. So I am not doing that anymore. Now I am going to look after myself.
So for the past week I have been curled up on the couch with Tess, my cabbage patch doll and the last thing my father ever bought me.
The other day, I bought my paints out for the first serious time in years. Q wanted to paint with me but it was bedtime so today I got his paints out and we painted together!
He painted me a picture.
And afterward gave me a huge cheeky grin!
I am hoping to be back to it next week but if not then I will continue to take time to do things I enjoy and try not to think about anything too serious too much until I feel better. Not only for myself, but also for my boys. I need to teach them how to deal with the ultimate meltdowns – the ones that seriously are bad for your health.